Anong gagawin kung wala ka?
dito ka nalang habang-buhay, sazie.
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yours truly, julix.
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“Tatlong beses kitang hihilingin.” A phrase that radiates the same warmth of the infamous phrase, “I love you.”To be cherished so profoundly that someone would wish for you three times knowing it is a once-in-a-lifetime experience. It's a love free from doubt, one where only certainty resides in the heart.Thankfully, for someone like you, it seems fate sculpted me fearless, destined for this very moment—I'd wish for you unreservedly, not merely thrice, but beyond.If the Genie appeared before me this instant, my first wish would be,“Huwag kang mawala sa’kin.”This is my first wish because… self explanatory, amor. I don’t want to lose you. I want to build a future with you.I dream of coming home from work and finding you in the living room, engrossed in your favorite fashion-themed show, cradling our pet cat.I dream of seeing you in our bedroom, dressed formally as we prepare together for our adopted child's middle school graduation.I dream of discussing our future home with carpenters and architects, planning where everything will go and envisioning our ideal location. Alternatively, I could even build it myself, with me as the architect and you as the engineer.I dream for every night to end with you beside me. I can't imagine a night passing without you in our shared bed, in our home.I yearn to see your soul's growth intertwined with mine,Not with another soul,But with mine.The idea of watching you flourish with another, a greater influence than I, would shatter me.Onto my second wish, I would wish for something a bit unexpected.“Sazie won’t ever tell anyone that her day is going bad or this day is the worst day of her life. Bawiin mo lahat ng araw na malungkot si Sazie.”I don’t want to see you coming to me, crying about something that has been bothering you the whole day, but you couldn’t tell anyone because I’m out of reach.I don’t want to see you distance yourself from everyone, never leaving your room and rotting in bed because you failed in something that you worked hard for.I don’t want to hear from Myka that you’re ignoring me on purpose because you think that I’d break up with you over a simple mistake.I don’t want to hear from your mom that you’re making it hard for her to understand you because you think that you’re the worst daughter ever in her eyes.I don’t want you to feel like you’re a burden to everyone, a failure to society, or even a disappointment to us.I want you to know that you’re the most special person to me, and that I am willing to go to great lengths to ensure you feel it deeply.Sazie, my love, you are so, so, so precious to me.And because of that, my last wish will be a bit selfish this time.“Everything I have dreamed of will go my way.”If it’s already written in the stars that you’ll be staying with me forever, I should be stable to be able to provide for you and for us.I would never let you date someone that can’t even buy you the food you crave on your red days, or someone that can’t bring you to places that you’ve been wanting to see since you were a child, or someone that cannot afford the restaurants you want to dine in, or even someone that can’t buy you tickets to the concert that you’re all-time favorite artist is holding.You may have started out as someone to be out of my league, but I promise you that you won’t regret giving a chance to me, someone that couldn’t even reach your league back then, to spoil you in the future.I will work hard for us.Not because I have to,but because I love you.
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For our future adopted kids that will ask,“How did you know that you were in love with mom?”For all the times I return home, she waits by the door, greeting me with a kiss under the fading daylight. It’s a simple yet beautiful reminder that she loves me unconditionally.Before we crossed paths, my world seemed dim and all the stars had burnt out. Then she found me, and suddenly, all uncertainty dissolved. There she stood, morning's light framing her smile, and I fell in love anew.Each time I gaze into her eyes, I'm certain we can conquer any challenge. She embodies honesty, fairness, and truth, and every memory cements my heart to hers.Even if she never fully grasps the depth of her significance to me, I will spend every day falling deeper in love with her.To answer your question, I realized that I was in love with her when I looked at her, smiling like the angel she is, and there I was, lovestruck with the idea that in the years to come, when age marks our skin and grays our hair, I'll still look at her as if she were sunlight breaking through the rain. I'll never apologize for the depth of my feelings because she is my everything.
Hello! This is dearjhocey, or as most know, "Author M".If you found this message, then congrats!I just want to say that I never expected Can You Not? to blow up in the first place. Akala ko it would be one of my aus that'd get swept away into the void because it didn't get any attention, but to my surprise, it got a lot of attention.At the time, there weren't a lot of Pogi!Jhoanna aus, and it was only the start of when people started recognizing Jhoanna as one of the papi line, so I really didn't expect it to get any recognition.Basta. The love for CYN has been unexpected and overflowing. There was a time that I went on a hiatus because of some issues, but it showed that my readers learned their lesson by not tagging the girls or mentioning the characters under posts that don't even have any relation to the AU. There are some exceptions like, "Oh, this JhoCey reminds me of JuZie!" but to plain out disregard JhoCey as real people and replace them with JuZie is not it.But, I am not here to scold, but to give a thank you to everyone that remained patient with me and the AU. I hope this was worth the wait and worth the read.To more complete AUs! :)
